random thoughts

im exausted ...but i know ive mentioned that in my last post .. and a zillion posts before thatthey sent me home on Friday saying i was burnt out and needed some rest time ... told me NOT to come in on the weekendi didnt ..i thought about it thohere till midnight last nightback in at 6amthank god for musicits the thing that fuels me and keeps me as focused and sane as i can possibly be during all this working i come from a family of musicians .. i didnt get that talent tho .. i got it in my hands .. all i can do is make pretty pictures ..but that aint to shabby i guess .. :)my mother is a opera singer as is my youngest sister .. seriously .. a professional opera singer .. she went to university for it and is constantly in Europe doing her thingi brought 2 *huge* folders of CDs to work (im not down with iPods ... i guess good ol diskmans are what you call kicking it old school these days :))i lose myself in it .. i wish i never had to take my headphones offbut reality has an ugly habit of grabbing you and shaking you out of your musical blissdamn you realitydamn you :)man im rambling today :)/forgive_me

later on this day

cripes ...re-render re-render re-rendergettin all over the tech boys and asking what the fuck happened last nightgetting the same answer "server went down .. nothing could be done about it"makes me hold my head .. and my stomach .. and brings a strong desire to drown myself in an ocean of wine .. or somethingthank god for musicthe only thing that gives me a space to myself here, and some sanity :)what im listening too right nowShikasta .... Pick It Upwhen youve got nothing left to lose ..then pick it upwhen youve got nothing left to choose ..pick it up when youve got nothing left to choose ..pick it upwhen youve got nothing left to lose ..then FUCK IT UPi said i gotta gotta gottapick it upi said i gotta gotta gottapick it upgotta gotta gottacmon pick it up put it right down mamapick it upput it right down babyi said now pick it upput it right down honeyi said now dig it up OH YEAHi said now bring it upALL RIGHTi said now fuck it upAWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW YEAH !@#...i havent done the song any justicebut the shit fuckin RIPSBELIEVE ME :)i gotta gotta gottago. :)m.PS: www.shikasta.comthey are my very good amigos .. support canadian music ... we need ya :)

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the stress is getting overwhelming here ..and we still have 8 months to gothats becoming a very scary thought6 day weeks are now slowly creeping into place now i feel it in my stomach already .. the burning stress of it all.. woke up this morning at 4am in a full on panic attack ... panicing about a freeking animal im working on .. only to come in 2 hours early and a 20 dollar cab ride later and find my renders failed cause the server went down .. not my fault but ill feel the ramifications of it .. just the way it goeson another notehalf my body is a huge black and green bruise ... now slowly turning a 'sexy' yellowi got car doored riding back from work on my bikesome jackass on his cell phone blabbing away opens the driver side door and **wham** right into meall i knew is one moment i was riding my bike .. the next im sprawled out on Dundas St West i was in shock and all i said to him is i want to walk it offits only Wedensday ... what a shitty week ..blah/end_rant

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friday night...

friday night 8:30 pm ... im still at work ...blaheh well .. chinese food is on the way, and itll probably give me enough sober time between work and going to my friend Justins birthday party to keep me out of troublegunna try and meet up with Bad Boy tonight to do bad things ... as usuali doubt we will actually find eachother, but its worth a try :)regardless we are going to see Sharon Jones and the Dap Kings on Sundayshould be mind blowingreview will follow on Mondaylife is still goodits justa little busy :)'nite

a short entry

just to let you knowthere is *NOTHING* like listening to Al Green followed by Otis Reading first thing in the morningim tellin yaworld ...bring it on :)im ready

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life is sooooooooooooo goodi dunno if its the weather or not, spring does soemthing to ya i tells ya :)this weekend was awesomeFriday night hanging with all my wonderful work friends at the pub after they set up free from the salt mine .. drinking vodka martinis (dry, straight up, lime twist please .. no olives) after that wandering over with my friend Jesse to watch my roomates band play cover tunes all night ..singing along with them at the top of our lungs .. then back to our place to drink more and cook up a HUGE 4am breakfast of scrambled eggs (which ended up all over the kitchen) and toast .. hanging around singing, dancing, listening to great tunes and a few of the guys started jamming in the basement .. then staggering off to bed at 6am, in love with the worldSaturday ... sleeeepppp ... yes all day nodding in and out of it .. watching all the stupid cooking shows i love ... taking a nap .. cooking some food ... taking a nap ... watching movies all night long, just me and Ringo the Cat Sunday spring cleaning .. a trip to evil Walmart .. new bath mat.. shower curtain .. massive industrial size containers of cleaning stuff .. ahhh a spiffy clean house for the first time in ages then my roomate Daves' friend who is a butcher came over with $300 (yes $300 ..) worth of steaks !!holy shit was it ever goodBBQ fired up, steaks, beers and music in backyard in that fantastic spring weatherlater meeting up with the bad boy for a few drinks and conversation .. then and long leasurely bike ride home :)its the simple thingsahh its going to be a good summer :)

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